I Have a Pocket Full of Sunshine...

And I ain't giving you shit! Haha.

Despite what happened last night, I had a good day today. I finally came back to school and the normal school day just continued. I still can't believe I got a 180/185 on my poetry project. I bs'd all of it in 6 hours and literally typed all of that without even going over it. Getting a good grade on something I half-assed is equivalent to pooping out gold (bad joke). Have fun reading it Ericka, if you really decide to, because its hella emo, haha. Im gonna go take an 8 hour nap now, laaaate.

Can't Sleep

My uncle died today. With all the things I'm currently going through, the last thing I have on my mind is losing someone I love. I'm gonna miss him. He was one of the coolest uncles I ever had. I remember always playing DDR with him when I was a kid and him always visting us. Thanks for trying to cheer me up Terrance and Shaida, really appreciate it. I have a hard time sleeping now. I wake up every 30 mintues or so, and I already took a lot of Benedryl and Nyquil.

Blah

I finally got to work out today. Ran 4 miles plus some weights and what not. Then, I just practiced for like the first time in weeks. Worked on my forearm freazes today and I kept falling. Got hella bruises on my arm and one on my ass, haha. Dancing gets boring sometimes, especially when you've just run out of inspiration and you just start repeating the same moves over and over. Probably one of my goals for the summer is to spend more time at it. Anyways, I probably might not go to school tomorrow, because my doctor advised me not to, and plus I don't wanna waste this doctor's note he gave me. Hopefully the medicine I had to order arrives tomorrow. My skin is hella sensitive to the sun right now and I turn into a monster once sunlight touches me. Its weird, because I only get that skin condition every 4 to 5 years or so.

Bob the Blob

Friday:
Didn't go to school today. The thing I got last week came back at full force, and just started to stay home. My parents took me to the hospital again, we waited a long time for nothing and just ended up getting an appointment for Wednesday. Then, I just came home and slept all day. Blobbin' it up on the phone and playing Draw My Thing all night with Ericka and Shaida made my day better, haha.

Saturday:
Slept and ate food all day. I haven't worked out in two weeks and my metobolism is slowing down. I ate like eight times today, haha. I've been craving ice cream the whole day, its hella hot.

True.

Just took a break from homework to take this test I found. Hella true.

Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could be left in peace.

At this time you 'need to be needed' and again you 'need to need'. You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have the belief that with the right person you could conquer the world.

Your confidence has been shattered. There are so many things that you would like to do with your life, so many dreams to be fulfilled - and you know that your hopes and dreams are not just figments of your imagination, they are real and you are looking for reassurance from someone. Basically your fears are such that you may be prevented in attaining your hopes and dreams. Even now you would like to broaden your fields of endeavour but in order to develop your 'inner- self' you need peace and solace. You are distressed by the fear that you may be prevented from attaining your goals. What you really need at this particular moment in time is quiet reassurance from someone close to you to restore your confidence.

You are presently experiencing excessive stress as a result of self-restraint. You act and think differently from the common herd and you want to be liked and admired for yourself and to associate with people who feel and act as you do. Because of this need to be self-reliant and to break away from mediocrity, you are finding this situation most uncomfortable and you are experiencing considerable anxiety - perhaps even more than you feel the capacity to cope with. You need to find a 'soul mate', someone whose standards are as high as your own - but where? Keep on searching... The situation is uncomfortable and you would like to break away from it, but you refuse to compromise with your opinions. You are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of necessary decisions. You are stubborn but this is no deterrent to a happy life, so why drop your standards. Think positively, everything will work out. It has worked out successfully for you in the past and it will again in the future.

The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are beyond your capabilities, or your reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal inadequacy. Your inability to take control of the situation causes you to over-react in stubborn defiance blaming everyone but yourself for your own failures.

Lost.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I've been down lately. Everything bad happens to me. I haven't been who I was a couple weeks ago. I've been losing my patience a lot easier. Almost everything that used to not annoy me annoys me. I've been getting pissed off at myself and others lately. I've been a complete asshole lately; not caring about other people's feelings. All of this I enjoyed are losing my interest and I'm starting not to care anymore. My friend thinks I'm depressed, or atleast have symptoms. I don't see why not. I need someone or something to cheer me up. Whatever, FML, it sucks.

Weaksauce

I wanted to go to school today, but I couldn't. I feel like shit and I can't feel my face. Might have to go the hospital tomorrow. FML. I'm going back to sleep, later.

Hay Fever..

I guess the forthcoming of Spring hit me with a bang today. Today at school after P.E. I got a heat/allergic rash to something. It was probably, because of the grass. My face got extremely hot. Thanks to those people who gave me some coins to get a bottle of cold water, you know who you are. My face felt hella strange for the rest of the day, but whatever, I managed. I came home and decided to go work out. About an 15 mins into my run, my face got extremely hot, so I decided to stop and take shower. To make things short, my mom thinks I have Hay Fever, and I think I'm high on antihistamine, haha. Might not go to school tomorrow, even though I have a test to finish. Its all good, it happens to the best of us. I'm currently just sitting down on my couch hoping it'll go away. I'm playing on iminlikewithyou to pass time. Add me yo!

iminlikewithyou - SickSiopao

Good Day.

Yesterday was a great day. I've been pretty unhappy this past week and feels good to have a good day for once. I haven't worked out in two weeks, and I finally got to run four miles yesterday. Then I headed out with my brother to Hacienda to go watch Watchmen. When we got there, all of the 7:30 tickets were gone so we decided to get the 10:50 tickets. We just chilled at the Stoneridge for while then went out to eat at a Mexican grill. In my opinion, Watchmen was weaksauce. It was two and a half hours long and it was too cluttered. There was so many things going on at once that it was confusing at times. Other than that, it was good day. Finally got some time to spend some time with my brother.



New pickups: Not bad for $100. H&M hoodies and raw Sliqs.

No DXC.

I was supposed to go to DXC today, but I decided not to. My grandma from Socal is here, and I decided that it'd be cool If just stayed home and spend some time with my family. I missed out on a lot, but its all good. There's always one in the summer.


Pictures from last night: